Watching the Democratic' party Presidential nomination for the 1st African American running for President, Barack Obama (hes's actually 1/2 black and 1/2 white, but people often assumed he's black) is what on everyone minds. However, if you're from Chicago like i do, everyone know how's the Major of Chicago does not get along with the Governor of Illinois. But something extra ordinary happen, as the news caster commented and in shocked, because most news casters in IL has been covered those two argued and butted heads over the years, those two guys hugged and made up in public, on televisions. They've put their differences aside, and finally forgave each others.
Let's start with Jason, he was my best friend since 1999, he was also my roommate for almost 3 years. We shared everything together, the good times and of course the worst of times. When he lost his job, i was there to comfort him ( although i lost my job the day before he was, he was NEVER there to comfort me). When many of his illegal immigrants boyfriends cheated on him, broke into our house and steal our stuffs, i was there for him. When he had financial problems due to spending all his money on his illegal immigrant boyfriends, i was there to covered for the utilities that heated and warm us during cold winter months. i usually let it go because i thought that was what friendship meant between me and him. However, after many times he did me wrong by sleeping with my ex boyfriends after i just dumped or being dumped by them, or how i asked money from him to cover for the utilities and he yelled at me for making him paying the utilities, since he had no money left because he spent $2000 on gift for his illegal immigrant boyfriends. To me, I'm NO WHERE compared to his tricks, but i regarded him as the best of friend anyone can asked for. I finally had enough of Jason, after nasty fights and back and forth emails bitching, i moved out and have not spoke to Jason since 2004. My forgiveness for him had wore off a long time ago. I do not think our friendship will ever be amend.
I know arguments and differences can be work out, and if someone tried to hurt you once, or used your generosity for their advantage, or mistrusted you, how often do you supposed to FORGIVE them? the shitty things that i let people i called friends do to me, sometime are unspeakable ( I had a friend who made me signed a legal lease contract which he MISS SPELLED my name on a horrible printed documents, so he can sell the condo for a higher price) but i forgave them. BECAUSE THEY'RE MY FRIENDS (or at least that was what they made me believed).
But how do you FORGIVE someone if you just met them? trusting them as, treating the as closed friend, yet they BETRAYED you, USED you for what it worth, and if things doesn't goes their ways, you're no longer a friend? How do you supposed to forgive someone like that?
Something for me to think about and work on it...
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