My drama saga with Chris

How do i put this relationship that i HAD with one of my friends that i considered as my best friend, Chris?

Maybe it's only me thinking that he's my best friend, i have the habit of thinking only one sided. I never really see what other people point of view about me until their actions proved it to me of how they really think of me.

Chris was supposed to be here for Market Days, him and I were phoned and texted each other countless time since June, which he was supposed to be here to "visit" me. But i doubted that he only wanted to "visit" me alone, he has his other "friends" here that really meant to visit.  Since he couldn't come here in June, i was very eager and excite to see him again, the fun we had when we hung out at all those gay clubs on Halsted street, eating in Vietnam town on Argyle/Broadway street, of course laying at the beach by my house is fun, and guys watching on Michigan Ave. is a must!

Thursday evening was when Chris arrived, while i was eating at a restaurant with my other friends, Chris and I was texting back and forth, he was contemplating if he want to go out right away or go change, or should he stay at my place or Shawn's new condo. To me, that's about getting on my last nerve. Noe and I been preparing and ready for him all week, we were so excited to see him, and yet, he didn't even care to think about us. While was eating dinner, Shawn told me that Chris had made plan with other friend to go shopping and sight seeing, and yet we weren't invited?!? what kind of friendship is that???  Chris wanted to do what convenience for him, what more fun for him, what doesn't cost him the most money.  Anything else, it's @ my expense! Trying to finish dinner early, so i can rush home and wait for Chris, and he NEVER show up!!!

What kind of friendship is that???

I have never met Chris during Market days, it was all of my decision.

I just got really fed up with him, because that was not the 1st time he pulled something like that to me and my other friend, so i decided to block him out of my life.  i had a talk with my sister, and she said that i need to cut my loss, let go of people who i considered as FRIENDS, but to them, i'm nothing more than just someone they use for their convenience.

i knew Chris for 8 years. such a sad ending.

I'm an optimistic, will time heal AGAIN for me and chris?!?